ah...

Real spring behind window, and real relax in this side of window :) chocolate ice cream, coffee, that taste awfully ( just now remember i don't like coffee actually), cosmopolitan (magazine, not a coctail) , pop music loud on radio and empty house. What else i could ask for my lazy days off? Ok ok don't go to details, coz could print like thousand lines list. So much happened recently and as usually i am to f***ing lazy to write down every little constantly. I'm having weird dreams last few days. Like today i woke up with idea why i don't read and analyze text anymore. U know like in school. Even met my literature teacher in middle of dream, so realistic; she couldn't pronounce R , but sounded not french at all, just like in reality. Anyway she's amazing personality and as much as i didn't like her while in school , now want to visit her when someday comeback, come, go to Lithuania, and say that for her. Just like honest thanks. She one of those rare people that believe i have brains.
Had to write down to my notebook everything happening to me. So since i slept over my Falkirk festival ( came back from work 2am) was working all week till these amazing in all meanings 4 days off in a row. But on Monday had time to go to Shanghai again. Didn't appreciate R'n'B in dance floor at beginning , but more cocktails done their work. :)) Wednesday was the best coz friend who havent seen for half year came for shopping day in Edinburgh. Weather was gorgeous as all week, so great occasion get red tan on my back and shoulders, isn't it? Ach girls day in a city with lots of laughs and gossips, memories from rannoch and first time me being guide of the city. Jealousy for new Lindsay's camera made me decide have one as well. And i will ! just before Paris affair :) Generally almost all week spend in work and west princes gardens enjoying sun, fresh air, smell of just cut grass, Spanish songs and becoming green from jealousy for happy couples.
I had a promise for myself. Some climbing, code name 'Arthur seat'. Done. 15 min. easy peasy. But view. AH....

Was in Botanic gardens as well. Ah real oase of nature in middle of city. Of course if skipping that part that i'm not really interested what leaves growing here next to rock or which family this bush is from. Few nice puddles for birds,plenty of benches for old boned ones, loads of friendly ( as long as u have nuts for them) squirrels, and smell of conifers. The one i really missed. Just bring that sense u really in nature, u 'at home', even kinda remind me yearly vacations in only Lithuanian beach town. relaxation. Oh and it have great view of city from the hill ( full of kids shouting and running to their spaceships :)) very expensive cafe small glasshouse, which part of them can't be entered without opening ur wallets. Anyway tropical house really convincing: humid (breathing don't look such an easy action there) and palm trees high with 3 floor or even more, that coconuts probably would look so small u didn't even want to try it. Somewhere in between glasshouses is room with exposition of architecture(?) + open workshop for kids + some old school music instruments( to try staff patience). Guess its unusual and worth attention, but at the moment personally myself was more concern to find loo (ooops), so can't say a lot bout it. Entrance free. open as remember till 19pm. Worth to visit. Actually i noticed Edinburgh one of those city full of green areas spotted in whole city. Parks, playgrounds, gardens, not only in city centre. I love it. Not many cities have this ( or they hiding it!)

Oh and yesterday. OH yesterday ! sexy massage from friend and El barrios. Best to shake off ur bad thoughts. As once i told my colleague : i don't really like guys there ( don't take it too absolute or racist), so i don't care how i look like = amazingly free dances. And Anikos ex colleague - to boost self esteem. Even stroll home after, which usually not so so comfy in my 'shiny shoes', didn't bother so much as it was good weather and funny guys aside, and of course alco in blood.
Almost didn't forgot my lil sister coming for summer job ( probably) as well as my favourite lithuanian girl. And Aniko inviting me to trip to look for summer job in Spain. ajajaj what to do?

Born to be Spoilt!

...says my underwear that just got from-now-my-favorite-shop 'La Senza'. I don't know what: the fact that stuff are really nice or that u get nice offers for a wide variety stuff that all girls love to choose from :) lingerie. But most charming is the fact that every ur purchase they wrap in deep pink colour wrapping paper. looks just sooooo chick. soooo me. Call me vain, but I do care about the packing of products. Just when read in 'The Undercover Economist' could finally step trough barrier and buy food products of cheap lines ( u know the ones like tesco or asda's rice, sauces and blah blah blah, we have maxima's production like that back in Lithuania) Coz its the same food, just for those who can't afford anything more expensive. Anyway my point was - all those stylish bottles of shampoo or funky/chick/urban elegant packages of any other stuff attracts my eye thousand times more than boring ones, or unmatched coloured ones. Sometimes even feel really sorry that have to buy high quality, lets say body lotion, in one of most ugliest designed bottles . And i'm just one of millions consumers. Not a victim of adds or smth. though, coz usually i just look at those stylish packed things with one of those 'why can't u be mine' or 'oh u are so beautiful i could just buy u right, here right now' stares, but usually (which means i also have weak moments, or paydays :) ) don't buy. Its simply i like pretty stuff (translation : as i said - I'm vain).
Wednesday was a good day. i mean night. goood night. Tired, faraway ( just i manage to leave my ipod at coffee house that closes in 5 min, thanks Nero on Lothian road staff ;) ) and bit pissed off coz of Aniko. Even though her watch is set half an hour ahead, she always late. usually late more than me. bastard. But there was salsa! yummy one hour just flew away so fast while trying to manage that 2 and half turns and crossed mambo steps. And what a good feeling when u finally do it right ! Almost forgot it since the last dance lessons in high school. For a few hours after still could hear teachers ' and again and again' with lovely (spanish?) accent. Later on or should i say true - after salsa lesson jumped to bus and hurry to fire (Beltane) festival, where met other hungerian people and wander around till the rituals started. Its quite cool. Everything based on Celtic culture. In ancient times Celts got 4 quarters as a calendar, instead of 12 months, so when each quarter turns into another one, they celebrate with special ceremonies. As i know Beltane is most important one. Anyway saw all those groups of people in red, blue, green and seems grey ( And when i mean 'in' i mean covered in paints) , also their ancient ''camps'', drank hot chocolate, and tightly fit into crowd of Spanish, french and polish people (where the hell all scotish were??). Can i just mention that those half naked /most of the time- almost naked / guys (planty of girls as well) with painted bodies was as pleasure for eyes as all that festival. And drums....omg drummers were amazing! Havent heard such good rhythms for a long time. wouldn't even call that stuff they played old stylish, maybe they modernised that? well to be honest drums music were amazing mainly on a main show. after hour u could hear them in few separate places, but it was rather monotonous base to create atmosphere than treat for ears. All event was awesome but bit disorganized, got lost after main part where to go, what to watch now. Everything happened at the same time.
Can't imagine how calton hill looked next morning, coz rain was just pouring like out of bucket. Had walk home for 15 completely soaked. oh and such showers where 'attacking' every few minutes and stops as quick as started. What can i say ...Scotland.
Recently got loads of business related with post. Including posting present for my mum, as mummies day in Lithuania happened to be on first Sunday of May. Which can be not so nice if u live in country, lets say UK, who sits calm now, coz brought all flowers/cards/chocolates for mums like two months ago. And now there's no signs that such day exist at all, which can be bit shocking to remember that totally accidentally on Thursday after work (god bless hospitality with all its non-office work hours) and organise send gift at the very same day. Didn't wanna be late, coz post in Lithuania dont work on weekends, and it takes 1-2 days package even to go there. Good daughter *proudly stroking head*

And i really shouldn't stay up so late, so going to enjoy my new gorgeous burgundy red bedding. Am i crazy if buying such things even when I'm just renting a room?
night night

summa'sun,summa'sun...

...used to sing Paris and Nicole. I'm not fan of celebrities (celebs if speaking american) neither magazines full of gossips about them. However such names as Matt Damon, Timbaland and so on i know quiet well, and especially know famous girlfriends Paris with Nicole. Just because their show 'Simple life' happened appear on TV at the same time as i put my tired ass on couch at late night. I know i shouldn't watch that evil tele-vision, but after work sometimes it prepare u faster for bed than anything else. Anyway, all i wanted to mentioned, that those girls wining, pretend to be mummy girls, laughing in inappropriate time and places, but they still do what they came for. if its fishing in stinky water - they fishing ( one of most disgusting stuff i found -was all day do enemas for people,that want to loose weight). I don't know if they doing that most because of money, or to advert themselves, but how many of u would spend day in animals shit ? This time i don't have in mind people that chose, lets say farmers life, no. I'm asking person that everyday use ipod, don't skip sunbathing and cry a little when fake nail comes off. All in all my attitude to their vain lives changed a bit. Don't decide about book from it's cover.
And that was shortest introduction I've ever had :) The reasons sing summa'sun : uncountable. Maybe it's good weather recent days, maybe those very few but real and inspiring Salvador Dali paintings at Dean Gallery. And we totally didn't like Ben Nicholson, even though I'm almost fan of surrealism (by the way why they wrote all his bio on information and just one sentence about works,thematic he working on?). Maybe mini photo session with some guy out of steel.
This one, we decided, is a boyfriend of dreams : don't interrupt you talkin, taught, always here for u, and never cheatin !
Other stuff that keeps me smilin involves facts :

• Accidentally with having intentions, have already bought ticket to street arts festival in Falkirk( forgot that have account on Scotrail, which wandering ''how much and when'' turned into ''oh. i just booked ticket''). Sunday. 9.oo leaving, oo.24 coming back. In between - hanging hopefully in crowded Callendar park with all kind of amusements and entertainers. Even though music list don't give me shivers street theater and festival market sounds promising. Besides haven't been in Falkirk ever before.
• That already have tickets in my pocket to fire festival on my favorite Calton hill. [Do anybody knows which entrance called 'via waterloo place'?]. We, lithuanians have celebration to great spring, here I'm gonna join party to great summer
• Finally found cheapest solution for my phone related problems. Instead of taking even really sedative looking plan from O2 with super duper ultra mega new and fantastic phone (but for 2 years,which is OMG for me, coz i don't know in which country i will be in couple of months, not talking about 24) just bought a new charger online for £6 (shops in Scotland like specially don't like Siemens) for my old phone. keep topping up.
• Paris.Paris.PARIS ! is on my calendar and all over my head. And i can't even imagine what have to happen that would disturb me on 3rd of June lay on a grass in front of Eiffel tower sipping wine with my dear hungarian girl.
  Au Revoir
  
  *Salvador Dali 'Raphaelesque Head Exploded'

Trip

I just booked tickets to Paris. The room is shining from my smile now :D i promise. And 'isgrauzkit' (sorry that i swear lithuanian) all of those who were loughing at my dreams, like: to live or at least visit Paris within year. I even started to feel recklessly. want to buy some flights sooner than in 2 of June. I mean price is just £20 ( Which usually u spend when going out,so this time will spend euros.IN PARIS !!!)

Ech and even i didnt write down (type down ?) here loads of things happened in my life. From sundays car boots sale to gosias call and guy(s) in El barrio and all stuff happening with friendship. all this will be forgotten. does it matter?

Its 'Nada Surf - where is my mind' on repeat constantly. All it remind is: that good, no, i mean godess time spend on my mini-beach in kinloch. Then was sun. was wide wide lake, was sand and thoughts. exceptionaly good thoughts.

that Was My Summer...

Than didn't think everything will change so quickly. Didn't know will live in Edinburgh. Who knows where wind will blow me in nearest future

Anyway

Paris, J'e taime

Rainy Friday

If I come back after work and short food shopping all sweaty and pretty good feel my legs,does it counts as I was in sport club?( the same one, that my new super-ego supervisor was talking all day about)
Anyway the last days flow with T-pain - church rhythms in head. As well as impressions from Step up ( both parts) dances. THAT'S why i wanna be dancer when i will grow up. The movies by itself quiet weak. If u can watch first part with all that romance and predictable plot, second part is totally crap as any kind of movie. But dances.....OMG. Totally worth to see just for drop-jaw effect ;)

Tonight gonna go hide from rain, that Edinburgh has been hooked on, to check out some Jazz club with ma' girls. So Sideways DVD have to been left for next time.

And HOW i hate to get up 5.30!! My grandma probably getting up later.

emergency call/el barrio

You know what's good idea? To organise going to latina's rhythms the same evening, ask your friend to bring not just her ass here but ''any summer top'' (a phone order sounded exactly like that) for me and dance, romp, shake ur ass off till knees drop. Even though i was after work- not in best condition in shorter. Anyway there were few minuses as well. seems DJ of El barrios knows the some tracks very well. but why to play the same songs for 3 times per evening. i mean every track. every track that we had already heard week before, and than week before. boooooring. (unless u like us had three shots in a row ;)) And we just wondered with my dear Hungarian friend why its quite empty in da club on Fridays. Of course being in hospitality business means u don't know how clubs looks like from inside on weekends, but thought friday is 'hot' night. isn't it? On the way home called emergency for some unknown guy. It was sooo funny ( just because the end is good). Anyway if u somewhere from UK so u know those uncomfortable benches in bus stops. While we were waiting for that unreasonably expensive night bus with still big noises in our heads, some guy with some junk food in hand came and sit on that bench. nothing suspicious, i even really think we looked more drunk than him. after few moments he just felt from bench and when i mean felt - i mean just like boneless doll or smth, he actually kissed pavement with his nose. Luckily nothing was bleeding and despite looking like totally unconscious he was moving his hand with burger, probably was still hungry :) My dear Hungarian friend gave me phone with connected emergency,as she blame she couldn't understand what that sexy voice guy asking her. While i tried to concentrate not to talk nonsenses on phone my friend was starting to panic, but luckily that woke up poor guy. Ambulance guys get him from the ground finally, while shared sorry for our all missed buses and made jokes about guys 'subway' snack. As i said- it was funny. By the way long time i couldn't understand why the hell word 'ambulance' written from right to left on those cars. and just recently find out its for other drivers. trough the mirror u see correct word. Well, can't blame me on this, i have never had driving car ( except those few times on shitty village road and in cow field :))
Anyway in occasion of hard work deserved those 4 days off. today's plan : being lazy and watch lots of movies at friends place probably with bottle of white wine and chocolate...mmmmm..... maybe send few postcards, as i kinda promised.

First Wednesday of April

Wednesday - i had to turn on spelling check to write this word .lol =) i live in UK one year and still don't know how to write it. Just because for me it makes no sense how word is made.
Anyway the day was F.A.B.U.L.O.U.S. Even though i had to wake up quite early when had to start work just at 5pm. And if i knew that in hairdressing salon they will wash head with all stuff: conditioners, shampoos blah blah, wouldn't wash by myself in a morning, while was trying to open my eyes. So now I'm short hair. Probably shortest that i ever had. It's quite miserable when hairdresser keeps part of your hair in her hand. Major part. Major part that is cut out. By the way if ur pockets quite full or u couldn't really afford but decide to save in case of food price visit the cheyenes. How cool is that after booking u can check out there how your hairdresser will look like. I won't hide i chose that place just coz looked busy, stylish youth place , at least from those glimpses i took while passing by million times after work. And there are at least 5 hairdressing saloons in my street, but who wants to go to some shabby indian/polish place? Not me!

Anyway after leaving the place not so heavy head and pockets gone to park. Had some nice soup and guys (showing off) i mean football in front of my eyes. Sun,which seems even slightly burned my face. Than phone talks with Aniko, who was standing just few metres ahead but called me to ask what kind of ice creams i want.

At work one couple told me that my accent - french, was flattered. But thinking reality - silly english can't recognize where is east European where is subtle french/dutch or smth accent.

To make long day even longer gone to walk about in Omni centre to have for a drink and remember that actually i can play pool. To get there we had to just almost 40 min roam from roses street to leith walk from pub to pub to find that all of them or closed or real holes. The australian place quite nice, but was quiet today. But besides they had few copies of latest 'Skinny' left. Already planned next trip to Lulu's. And can't wait New Europe 2008 movie festival. Definitely going to this one. Yes, just because missed Lithuanian language.

28th of March.Friday

You know one of those morning when u wake up wayyyy much later or earlier than usually, find part of earring in ur hairs, which, by the way, looks like after hurricane? one of those morning when for pint of water u would give kilogram of gold. And spinning head don't disturb for you at all to remember last nights wildness in club.

This time, or should i say yesterday, we checked out Lulu's. What can i say - Awesome! Of course i prefer not student night's, coz majority of that crowd were younger than me ( and I'm just 21. not the best time to feel old) Despite the fact it was just two of us going this time, we had great time. And honestly if I'm going out to have wild dances, i prefer girl as a companion,just because that way u feel more brave for a guys hunting. This time i was with my dear friend. Male one. And ladies, if u going with just with one guy-friend, to catch something almost impossible. Unless u simply hang urself on one of the guys necks :)
Its because of two reasons: u don't want to leave ur friend alone. And some mysterious guys respect for each other make them 'just watch but not touch' . Damn it ! But dance floor we left just for loo or shots brakes. wild wild wild.

Anyway club is real style oasis, place for chicks to gather, oh and they have light-floor in dance area,thats fun. No boring grandpa's sweaters, or hippie's accessories, or ( sorry but have to say) short annoying Indians with their moustaches. And sooooooooooo many cute guys. and when i say cute i mean SEXY as hell. all with stylish haircuts, tall and mostly cool stylish. i mean in dance floor u actually don't need to scan area to find guy u would go with, 98% of them u would go with. And i remind u - I'm picky one. Well probably would be just lucky night, but beside great dance music ( for those who want some serious deep house or real Latina rhythms - not really 'That' place, but fun sexy disco, fiery Latino favoured ice-cool electronic and chic-new-wave contagious sounds - guarantied) and hot guys ( girls was fifty- fifty: some of them would die to change places with, some - gosh, did u just came from knitting evening?) the drinks promotions are real sin to refuse. We all night sipped ( if u can call one glass /per 5min speed- sipping :)) red bull+ double vodka = £2.5, shots = £2, wouldn't expect in such fancy place. Oh and the entry fee bought off when i found 20 pounds in girls toilet in the beginning of evening. I'm honest or was already tipsy, asked those few ladies if they lost anything. Nobody seem felt that way.

Did i mention- the best parties are unplanned ones? As my dear friend would say - Oh yeah, it is

p.s. picture is not from Lulu's club,just i liked it so much.

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